Got myself a brand new concert flute as a new years resolution, signed up for a course in september. Only to realize that I will be missing half of the lectures... That is of course if I get accepted at all.
Getting new ideas to draw, but being scared from failures that I never draw. One day, I shall accept that I'm not talented in drawing but I have a gifted imagination compared to some others and I shall improve the drawing skill in order to express that.
Got myself another Nikon camera. Kinda semi-pro one... p7700. Not happy with it, but it's a good camera, certainly an improvement over the s8200 .
Questioning life, people, how they see other people, etc. I found myself getting more and more disgusted by the judgmental looks of other people. Sure everyone should try their best to keep healthy. But some people can be fat, short, hairy, bald ... or they might have big nose, big ears, a big ass, ... whatever... Self-confidence should exist regardless of what you don't like in yourself. I don't agree to the fact that people will gain self-confidence once they lose the extra weight. Why instead of teaching everyone to be perfect, we can't teach them to like themselves as they are... And more importantly why can't we just love everyone as they are... Sure some people will find feature X attractive over Y, I agree. I'm just against this Barbie-Ken style looks, and everyone saying that 'Oh but if you achieve that you will be happy!'. You know what I have seen gorgeous man and woman who get attention in every fucking place they go and yet they are still not happily married/ in a relationship even though this is what they want. So it's not all about and shouldn't be all about the looks, right?
What I was gonna say :-S Whatever, I forgot :-D I'm just filling up the journal, because I don't want to update either my two other websites or my dairies.
Will I ever belong to somewhere...?